Yesterday afternoon I had to make one of the hardest decisions I have ever had to make. I had to put my sweet baby girl to sleep. I know she is no longer suffering but it pains me every waking moment since it happened. I keep thinking back to when she was a kitten. She was the runt of the litter and she was scared of the world. She would be hiding when all the other kittens were trying to explore. We had already decided to take Ichabod and when I saw her I knew I had to take her too. I picked her up and she was shaking. She clinged to my shoulder with her claws holding on tight. It didn’t phase me. I just held her and told her “you don’t have to be scared anymore little one…. I am going to take you home and take care of you”
Sabbath napping peacefully on top of the couch by Mommy
That is the same moment I thought about when I was nursing her these past few months. The around the clock syringe and tube feedings, measuring and administering her meds, cleaning up vomit, convincing her to eat, staying home with her to make sure she was not alone…. it all brought me back to that moment when I promised her I would be there for her. That I would take care of her.
Telling her goodbye I felt a harsh bit of guilt as if I let her down. Was there something else I could have done. Did I not do enough? Did she know how hard I tried and fought for her?
I just picture her sweet face looking up and meowing at me. Running to me when I would call her name. Turning her head towards me so I would kiss the top of it. Sitting in “her spot” on the couch next to me. Swatting bottle caps, Mickey’s caps and the tops of plastic spray bottles across the house. Catching flies in mid air (the never stood a chance in our house). Trying to spill my cup of water over when I would paint. Splashing her water bowl all over the kitchen for fun. Letting me use her as a pillow and purring the whole time while I did. Doing sneak attacks on Ichabod.
Everything reminds me of her. As hard as it is right now I will cherish those moments I had with her. She loved me on days I didn’t even love myself.
R.I.P. Sabbath “Sabby” Garcia. I miss you my sweet baby girl. May you no longer suffer as you cross the rainbow bridge. Mommy loves you. You will forever hold a special place in my heart. I will always be grateful to you and your unconditional love.
I know I have mentioned our 2 cats (AKA our kids) Sabbath and Ichabod before on my blog but today is a very special post dedicated to Sabbath AKA “Sabby”. We noticed she has not been eating and had lost a significant amount of weight.We thought she had been getting more hairballs etc so decided to get them a different type of food in case the one they currently were on was starting to not agree with her. Nothing was working to get her to start eating again. What we thought to be hairballs we soon realized was nausea and vomiting when all that came up was foam, saliva, bile etc. She was not going to eat and she was starting to act less and less active. Desperate to help her we took her to the vet last week. They did blood work, urine testing, exam etc. Needless to say she was in anorexic/starvation mode, had a UTI and her levels for her pancreas and liver were very high. She is on the edge of getting the very deadly fatty liver disease. The vet said we were very smart to bring her in before it got any worse or we would have found her at home dead. Grocery money was spent between the vet and scripts but thank god that we did. We have been syringe “force feeding” her when she won’t eat on her own on top of administering meds that she fights us on taking. All while hoping after all the work she doesn’t throw it all back up.
She has her good days and her bad days. She is done with 2 meds which were a supplement for her liver and an antibiotic for the UTI and pancreas. We were unsuccessful with the antacid meds so the vet said to not stress her out with them ($28 down the drain there).
I called and gave the vet an update on how she is doing and had to go back in to get 2 new scripts and more of the special diet food. The one pill is an anti nausea and the other is an appetite stimulate. The goal is to get her eating atleast 1/2 can of this food from the vet a day. The more she eats the better she will get. However with her being nauseated it is really hard to get all that much into her and for her to keep it down. Hopefully these meds will do the trick. If she does not get better we will have to bring her back to the vet where they will have to keep her there for days force feeding on iv nutrition and getting her hydrated etc. They would also run more tests etc.
Now that you got the back story I want to let everyone know that I am running the biggest discount sale I have done in my Etsy shop to help with the vet costs, meds, special foods etc. We are trying our best to not have to bring her back to be hospitalized as it will be money we currently do not have and would have to borrow/loan/get credit etc. It would help if we were prepared incase it comes down to it.
So with this sale you can pretty much say I am eating the cost of supplies to make my items and giving everyone that uses coupon code SABBATH at check out 50% off their order (for any pre-made/ready to ship items – hit me up and we can discuss a possible separate discount of sorts on custom items)! If you have ever wanted something from my Etsy shop now would be the time to do it. Not only would you be helping Sabby out but you would also be getting something cool at a really discounted price! This sale starts today and it ends on 5/20. This gives you 10 days to take advantage of this sale!
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AKA Living Dead Girl Nicole