imagejpeg_0It sucks when a day turns into a milestone that makes you flashback to so much loss. An annual reminder of how long you have lived your life without someone in it. A day you flashback to when you were a child and felt the worse pain imaginable. For 27 years, March 16th has been a day of mourning,  a day of feeling incomplete, a day of “why her?”,  a day of confusion, a day or feeling alone, a day of tears you can’t hold back even in public, a constant reminder of when my entire world got turned upside down. The day the world lost an incredible woman. My mother.


Every year on this day I go to the cemetery in her memory and it’s never easy. This year I decided to make a special bouquet for her. I am hoping it might help to use symbolism and to honor her instead of focusing so much on the loss of her not being here. I used flowers in some of the bright colors I know she would like. My goal was “let’s brighten such a sad and shitty day…….somehow.” Yes, the pink ribbon symbolizes breast cancer but to me, it also symbolizes that she was a fighter!  The owl represents who she was as a person. She loved owls and they remind me of the happier times of my childhood as they decorated the house we lived in. But they are also very wise, strong and beautiful creatures…… just like her.

As another step of trying to focus this creation 6tag_230716-104736post in her memory. I want to end it with a photo of her and I that always makes me smile. My Mom was a funny lady and my brother and I  get a lot of my personality from her. As you can also see in this photo 🙂 This one’s for you Mom! You may not be here physically, but your spirit will always live on within us. Thank you for giving us the foundation that helps to keep us strong.  For the signs, you send to Mike and I that let us know you’re with us or that you know what we are facing. For bringing random people into our lives at just the right times that help to keep us going. Your love shines through them. Thank you for being the woman you were to help me become the woman I am.

Never Forgotten,
LDG Nicole

Back Bone: Too Fast – Lula Benefit Tee


As you all know I am all about giving back especially when a story strikes a cord or hits home for me. This one went straight to core of my being when I read it and immediately I purchased a fundraiser shirt. As you all know I lost my mother to breast/lung cancer when I was 10 years old. Art has always been a release and way of expression for me my entire life. It has also been my way to give back to others and it’s helped not only me when I was in pain but others as well. I ask that you please read Lula’s story and purchase a t-shirt in her Mom’s honor. Support this little artist who is in a world of pain right now. As a young girl, loosing a mother is a void that carries with you for the rest of your life. Nothing can ever replace that void. All you can do is find ways to deal with it. I hope with the help of her art that she becomes a stronger woman because of this. That is teaches her that life is too short not to pursue her dreams! This t-shirt is that start for her and thanks to Too Fast (one of my all time favorite stores) they are helping make that happen for her! Please support and share the word!


Lula is a 13 year girl. That is the first amazing thing you will learn about this awesome little artist! Lula draws all the time. It is what she does, who she is. She is super talented as you can see! Lula’s first design for Too Fast is a drawing that she dedicated to her mother, Jane. Her mother passed away on New Years Eve 2015. Jane died from colon cancer, she fought like hell, but unfortunately, she lost the fight. Jane was my best friend (Maureen, Partner in Too Fast). Every single penny you spend on this shirt will go directly into the fund for Lula and her brother, Ren. Show Lula and Ren some love!

Purchase it HERE!

Stay Spooky!
LDG Nicole