I don’t even know where to begin here and it’s just too hard to try to put into words how I am feeling. So I am going to leave you with what I posted on Instagram today because I think it sums things up the best I can right now about losing my friend Sid.

@sidhaigsays – When I heard the news that you were no longer with us my heart broke, I began to shake and the tears continue to fall. I have since been trying to find the words to say and its hard to put into words how special you are to me. That’s how much light you brought into my world. What started as a funny “well shit the bed” fan girl moment bloomed into a 15 year friendship filled with memories I never would’ve expected. All because you accepted me into your world. You always made me feel special, you were an inspiration to me as well as mentor full of wisdom and advice and when we were together it felt like time did not pass. We would catch up like old friends and I would literally say goodbye feeling like my soul had been uplifted. You were a remarkable human being with a heart of gold and the impact you had on my life I will forever be grateful for. May your remarkable and beautiful soul forever be at peace.