It sucks when a day turns into a milestone that makes you flashback to so much loss. An annual reminder of how long you have lived your life without someone in it. A day you flashback to when you were a child and felt the worse pain imaginable. For 27 years, March 16th has been a day of mourning, a day of feeling incomplete, a day of “why her?”, a day of confusion, a day or feeling alone, a day of tears you can’t hold back even in public, a constant reminder of when my entire world got turned upside down. The day the world lost an incredible woman. My mother.
Every year on this day I go to the cemetery in her memory and it’s never easy. This year I decided to make a special bouquet for her. I am hoping it might help to use symbolism and to honor her instead of focusing so much on the loss of her not being here. I used flowers in some of the bright colors I know she would like. My goal was “let’s brighten such a sad and shitty day…….somehow.” Yes, the pink ribbon symbolizes breast cancer but to me, it also symbolizes that she was a fighter! The owl represents who she was as a person. She loved owls and they remind me of the happier times of my childhood as they decorated the house we lived in. But they are also very wise, strong and beautiful creatures…… just like her.
As another step of trying to focus this creation post in her memory. I want to end it with a photo of her and I that always makes me smile. My Mom was a funny lady and my brother and I get a lot of my personality from her. As you can also see in this photo 🙂 This one’s for you Mom! You may not be here physically, but your spirit will always live on within us. Thank you for giving us the foundation that helps to keep us strong. For the signs, you send to Mike and I that let us know you’re with us or that you know what we are facing. For bringing random people into our lives at just the right times that help to keep us going. Your love shines through them. Thank you for being the woman you were to help me become the woman I am.
From either personally knowing me or reading my posts it is obvious that breast cancer is something that has personally effected my life in a dramatic way. With my Mom passing away from the disease when I was 10 it has had a huge impact on me in ways I can not even begin to explain. Being 35 (the age she was when she was diagnosed), having a recent scare of my own and her birthday coming up this Saturday it is easy to say that the thought of breast cancer is pretty fresh in my mind these days.
However it is also on my mind because my friend Trish is fighting the same battle my Mom did. Just like her she is fighting this at a young age while raising raising 2 beautiful children. She continues to be an inspiration to everyone with her positive “I’m gonna kick this cancer’s ass” attitude!
When I heard they were having a benefit for her I had to find a way to help. One glance at the Back Bone page of my portfolio it’s pretty obvious that I enjoy using my artistic skills to help great causes. Especially after facing my own serious health scares and seeing how people pulled together to help me get through them. It’s scary enough to have something so serious effecting you physically and yet trying not to stress over the cost it all takes to get well. The help of others made a huge impact on my recovery. I urge you to come out and support this strong amazing woman and her family. From my own personal experience I can tell you that every bit counts!
With that I made a basket of my handmade creations that I am donating. It will be a part of the prizes raffled off this Sunday, July 24th at Evil Horse Brewery in Crete IL from 2- 5pm! So if you ever wanted to get your hands on some of my creations now you can attend a fun event, buy a raffle ticket for a chance to win a whole basket of them all while helping a great cause!
The reusable cloth basket is filled with the following…
– Full Size – Skullerfly Hanging Decoration
– Full Size – Skelefly Animal Print Freaky Flower Decoration
– Full Size – Vintage Burlesque Dragonfly Barrette
– Mini – Skullerfly Magnet
– Mini – Sparrow Bird Tattoo Inspired Barrette
– Mini – Sparrow Bird Tattoo Inspired Pin
– Breast Cancer Ribbon Keychain
– Living Dead Girl Nicole Zombie sticker
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I did some major bedroom cleaning/rearranging this weekend to prepare for our Yogabed to arrive this week. My back is still hating me. Hate me as it will… it lead to 3 bags of donations for good will and more……
I was talking to my friend Heather about it all and told her how I also have all these high school dance dresses and bridesmaids dresses that I no longer can wear that I would like to donate but don’t want them ending in a pile of donations never to be seen by someone that could really use them. Or smashed in a garbage bag on my back porch waiting to be picked up and throw in the back of a truck. So many memories and meaning comes from each of them that it sort of broke my heart thinking about it. Hence why they are still in my closet. I told her how I had looked into some of the Prom dress donation websites but I had more then just prom dresses. I had stuff I wore to Homecoming and Turnabout as well. Short dresses that would not qualify and others that might be considered out dated by some of the charities even though the styles I wore were pretty timeless.
That is when Heather came up with an insanely AWESOME idea! She asked if I would be down to donate them to her friend, Emily who is the head of the drama department at a high school. She told me not only could they be used for some of their theatrical performances but also some girls who don’t have a lot come to her friend when they need dance dresses because they can not afford them. She also informed me that Emily does all the fundraising for the drama dept and a lot of times they are in dire need of items. My heart smiled! It was no longer hard to let go of these memorable pieces of clothing. I knew just from hearing this that this is where they belong! As one artist to another I know Emily will reuse these dresses and make someone feel magical all over again. Emily is insanely talented with a heart of gold! 🙂
When Emily saw the photos of the dresses she told Heather “It’s like Christmas!” and when she saw my old pink prom dress (I always referred to as Glinda meets Clueless) she was stoked. She is doing a production of the Wizard of Oz! This made me especially happy because this dress is the hardest for me to part with because it holds a lot of meaning to me. Not only because it was one of my prom dresses from the year I was on prom court, but because I specifically wore pink in memory of my Mom who passed away from breast cancer and always told me she liked me in pink when I was a kid. She might not have been able to be there to help me pick the dress out, do my hair and makeup with me, take photos with me etc. so this was my way of sharing that special moment with her. To know this dress will be used in such a artistic, memorable way just makes me so incredibly happy. It literally brings a tear to my eye. I know Emily can take that dress and turn it into something unbelievable.
Some of the others that are hard to part with are the dresses I wore to dances and prom my senior year when I was dating my husband, Frank. Just knowing those will either make another young girl happy or be used on one of the stars of her plays just makes me that more excited to donate them.
After hearing the drama dept was in need of items I also went through some of my old costumes that I have worn for Halloween and past photo shoots (back in my ole alternative modeling days).
Last night I reminisced about the dances I went to, the weddings I stood up in and the fun Halloween parties and photo shoots I took part in as I boxed them all up. It made me smile to know that someone else will get to share that joy!
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