Reflections : Mom, tougher then any winter freeze!

Tomorrow marks another year my Mom has been gone. With the weather being so unpredictable and rumors of more snow tomorrow I decided to take advantage of the sunshine and go to the cemetery today instead. When Frank and I got there I couldn’t believe my eyes. The butterfly bouquet and the porcelain owl I put out there last time was still there and had survived the insane, harsh, deep freeze, Chicago winter! I couldn’t believe it.

I added the new flowers to the mix that was still there and texted my brother about it. I sent along this picture that I took/edited and said…

“They are still here… tough as nails… just like you and me… just like Mom”  😉

His response “hell yeah!”

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My Mom might not have conquered cancer but she was the strongest person I have ever known! She was a tough cookie! And remembering that about her is what helped give me strength during my surgery and recovery process this past year. I might have had my break downs but I made it through it and I know she was there for me during it all. All the signs she sent to me and my brother have been taken to heart and seeing this today was yet another reminder of her presence and to stay strong! The irony though. Me even typing the word “strong” while tears roll down my face. I guess no matter how strong you are you can’t help but miss someone so much. To feel like a void is missing from your life that can never be filled. And knowing no matter what you do and no matter who comes in and out of your life that it will never go away. Does that make you a stronger person? A weaker person? Who knows. All that I know is that I miss everything about her and that I will never forget all that she was and all that I hope to be because of her.

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2 thoughts on “Reflections : Mom, tougher then any winter freeze!

  1. It’s amazing that bouquet survived this winter and I believe a real sign for you and your brother. I have no idea what it is like growing up without a mom but I think about what you had to get through without her there. She would be so proud of all the things you have done just as your dad and I are.

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    • Thank you so much Grace for your kind words and your support. I am truly grateful to have you in my life. I think you and my Mom would have really liked each other. She would be so happy that you have been there for me through so many things.

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